What is parenting?

At first I thought it was feeding them, providing for them the things they need, I mean after all you are the provider of life to them right?

No, there is way way more than just providing... for crying out loud I can recall being told this, but did I listen, hell no... Oh no, I had to mos try it for myself... Learn for myself, Figure it out for myself.. what a shock when I realized that parenting was not just providing, it was committing... OH yes, committing myself to a state of madness... crazy round about madness....

Never knowing weather or not what you were or are doing is the right thing. Also not all's advice you can follow, imagine that?  "put a plaster on that wound!" or "No, don't worry about it, it will heal on it's own."  and then, you go to the doctor and it actually needs stitches... can you picture this.

I think if ever you need to follow advice, take your mothers...I mean after all you are ok aren't you?

Anyway, all I wanted to say is that if it wasn't for my mother's parenting skills, and my ability to learn (eventually) I don't think I would have ever made the cut.

I am however now in this, and I am determined to make it the best I can, even if it means selling my "soul" on gumtree from time to time to give them what they need and want, then so be it. 

I want them to one day turn around and say, ghee thanks mom for being you, and then I want to say, no, thank God for giving me a mother who could teach me to be a mother....

Love you mom